discussin music

played teh worst show ive ever played in columbus last night. went to pull out the loop pedal and it was missing, i believe its at the guys house whom i met a few days ago. i was angry, i played my keys, it didnt sound good. the keyboard situation was bad because i didnt have anything pre written, didnt know the tones before hand, and didnt know the beats beforehand, but i think i still got some positive feedback from people, which was cool, but i definately felt like i sucked hah. there was the jam bit in the beginning, then the indian song, then the final thing where i was making it up as i went along. but yeah its difficult to manage to do all of that for a hostile crowd. that was mys tory and im sticking with it ;p. anita was also there. she came over afterwards and we shot alot of footage. im going to put all of it together with music to make a video.

i think anita around may not have been the best idea seeing as how one of my goals is to get into her pants and im going to keep trying to do that with her around so i think its best if she doesnt come HERE but actually maybe meets up with me in more of a professional setting each time, like music at the open mics, shows, and the like. those sorts of things will lend to more of a healthy appreciation for and the like for anita. beyond that, right now its like how i felt when i was kinda awkward around folks in game. i think its better when you interact with them as professionals because then you can go much further with your craft with that person than if you make that decision cross that line and sexualize your working relationship which means everything will suffer in terms of quality and you will not get very far. so i think the anita thing needs to stop altogether.

another thing i decided was i need to better organize my music stuff. it may be time to set up the stand in the front room, so that i can see everything displayed before i go to the open mic. thats pretty important for me, the ability to just be able to glance around and tell everythings there. in this case id arrived without noticing my loop pedal wasnt there, so thats a lesson learned.

also, i wont be carting my setup to other peoples houses anymore, if they want to play with it, and if i do bring it someplace, it wont be something i mix and match, i will use my setup, and it will be mine, not for anyone elses uses, and the cords, guitars, everything, none of it is meant for other people. the guys were all too eager to play my guitar, but that was my setup and i didnt want anyone but myself playing that guitar. so yeah.

open mic tonight, may go.