[jam 238]

[jam 238]

this is an idea for something we can do with the band...

intro...

loop > drum beat > ...

baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man
baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man

[verse #1]
i sat upon the edge. when i knew you were gone. i knew you were gone. you were gone so long. -
i was miserable. i was miserable. i saw you were gone. i knew you were gone. -
i knew you were gone and i... i knew you were gone... you were gone. -
gone. i missed you cause you were my apple. you were my sweetie pie. and i didnt have you anymore. -
you were gone. oh baby you were gone. and ive gotta say i was sad to see you go. -

baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man
baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man

[verse #2]
in the summertime when the weather was fine. thats when someone crossed the line and broke my heart. i was standing on the sidelines and falling apart. -
when my girl was taken from me. i was sad as pain as can be. but she knew in her heart that she still loved.
so much pain, so much pain. so much pain. so much pain. oh its hard to explain. words are in vain. -
and i lost my baby. when the weather was fine. i knew that i was alive. but what a painful time. -

baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man
baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man

[guitar solo]

baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man
baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man
baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man
baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man
baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man
baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man
baby girl / you were taken from me. / i was miserable / i was a broken man

[guitar-solo, literally]

[jam 239]

[jam 239]
this is my second idea

i don't wanna run
no i don't wanna run anymore
i don't wanna run
no i don't wanna run anymore
i don't wanna run
no i don't wanna run anymore
i don't wanna run
no i don't wanna run anymore.

verse #1
its been so long since ive felt like i could just be myself. everyday is a battle and im ready for the fight. -
people like ot pick on me. tel me what to do. but they dont know who i am. and im a chilled out guy. and im ready to stand up for who i am. -
i never let people push me around. and even if they do its never to the ground. and even if it is i still get up again. i dont get a scratch and if i do i still... -
get up and fight. cause thats whats right. thats what i do. -

i don't wanna run
no id on't wanna run anymore.
i don't wanna run
no i don't wanna run anymore.
i don't wanna run
no i don't wanna run anymore
i don't wanna run
no i don't wanna run anymore

verse #2
i was born to be a fighter. i was a survivor. i lived through so much shit. people dont give a shit about it -
but im tough as nails, in my soul, even though my body's flesh and bone. the body is somethin i own. -
im not gonna let people push me around, even if they do im not gonna let them change my ways -
and even if i do i wont let myself die in vain. and even if i do my spirit will never change -

ive seen so many people roll over and give up. im not gonna be one of them. im not gonna let them fuck me up. -
and even if htey do they wont change me in my head. i will always be the same guy lying in bed. thinkin bout the world instead -

i dont wanna run no i dont wanna run anymore
i dont wanna run no i dont wanna run anymore
i dont wanna run no i dont wanna run anymore
i dont wanna run no i dont wanna run anymore

verse#3
people assume so many things about a guy whose quiet in the way he sings, the way he talks and the shit he brings. thats the way it goes. thats the way i tgoes -
im just used to the world and who knows where ill be in 20 years or so. all i know is what i know, and where i go is just where i go. -
i just hope im not the result of peoples bullshit. i wanna be fit. i wanna be tough. fit for it. fit for life. thats right. -
i wanna have a good time, a good life. i wanna do it right. i wanna do it right. i wanna do it right. -

i dont wanna run no i dont wanna run anymore.
i dont wanna run no i dont wanna run anymore
i dont wanna run no i dont wanna run anymore
i dont wanna run no i dont wanna run anymore.

[guitar-solo]

Loops while in Dayton

So I just made a Strokes sounding song with the Julian Casablancas vocals about Anita called Baby Girl about the summer with Rijos and the breakup. Definately a dark difficult time and something I could easily sing a lament to. I'm uploading the recording of me jamming out to it to Soundcloud right now.

stuff i did on the pedals [fuckin round]

u2 - sunday bloody sunday
weezer - say it aint so
me - comin over
me - you're in my head

show #2 lyrics.

sickness:

hook: ive got the sickness, baby i got it bad
ive got the sicknes, worst ive ever had

verse: got the lovesickness, got the lovesickness, got the lovesickness, thickfreakyness
sickness, rediculous, incredulous, infinitus
can i tell you somethin?
there's a thought that's on my mind.

sami/me/bc

__________

homeless:

hook: homeless(sami), aint got nothin(bc), i was homeless i was(sandeep)

verse:
ive spent time on the street, cardboard box and sign to eat
spent time in the shelter, had food stamps, had the soup line
been humbled, heckled and tackled
been dead and gone, but keep trackin on

sami/bc/me
__________

boom2fade

hook: every morning i wake up and ask why, my life it seems to pass by, all i wanna do is zoom zoom zoom away, zoom away, boom to fade

verse: its so strange, and kinda weird
see the shadows, feel the fears
climbing mountains, in the dark
chasing shadows, in the park

me/bc/sami

__________
lala
sami/bc/me/sami

hook: im gonna fuck with you, im goin to lala land. la la la la la la la la lala land

verse: when you wanna go, open up your head, don't let 'em take you away
open up your mind, don't leave them behind, don't let 'em take you away
do you remember, your first summer? stars were shining.
you used to shine. tell me what happened to your soul?
__________
jolly
bc/sami/me/dance/cops

hook: do the jolly, do the do the jolly rancher, do the jolly, do the jolly jolly rancher

verse: candy sugar confection creation
tasty sweet sugary sensation
jolly rancher, like a happy cowgirl
bubblegum pop with the lasso whirl

to the left to the left and drop drop to the right to the right keep it hot hot
fuck, fuck the what? fuck the cops. you got it!
don't stick the cherries and berries on me.
__________
whatcha got?

bc/sami/bc/me

hook: can you see the lights
theyre so nice. and so bright.
can you see the lights.
theyre so nice. and so bright.

verse: ive seen so many things, been so many years, since ive been around. had so many fears, and im going down.
im wondering what im gonna do 'cause my homes so far away. i just wanna be cool, be cool, be cool.
__________
bass knock:

bc/sami/me/bc/sami

hook: my bass knock, my bass knock, my bass knock, you can hear my you can hear my bass knock, my bass knock, my bass knock, and you can see the trunk pop.

verse: everything in my head is spiralling around, i can see the city lights and feel the ground, hear the buzzing.
take the subway, going far out, see the streetlights, hear the hum loud
cold air, and cool clothes, bar friends, and park's rose.
___________
going out:

me/bc/sami

hook: i wanna go out, i wanna go out. i wanna out, yeah i wanna go out. // do you wanna go out? yeah i wanna go out. do you wanna go out? yeah i wanna go out. do ya wanna go out. go out. go out. go out. go out. go out.

verse: ill take you to the movies, ill take you to the beach. ill take you to the park. ill take you to the streets. ill take you to the movies .ill take you to the beach. ill take you to the park, girl, ill take you to the streets.
__________
1995

bc/sami/me

hook: i feel like i have been in love since way back when in 1995. 1995.

verse: brown and out, new kid on the block,
young and misunderstood, wore an art smock
listened to the grunge. listened to the beatles.
had a british connection. punks and rockers are real.

__________

star

sami+me+molly/bc/sammy+me+molly

please could you stay awhile to share my grief
its such a lovely day to have to always feel this way
and the time that i will suffer less, is when i never have to wake

wandering stars for whom it is reserved, the blackness of darkness forever
wandering stars for whom it is reserved, the blackness of darkness forever

those who have seen the needles now tread
like a husk from which all that was now has fled
and the masks that the monsters wear, to feed upon their prey

wandering stars for whom it is reserved, the blackness of darkness forever
wandering stars for whom it is reserved, the blackness of darkness forever

-bc-

always doubled up inside, take awhile to shed my grief
always doubled up inside, taunted- cruel-

wandering stars for whom it is reserved, the blackness of darkness forever
wandering stars for whom it is reserved, the blackness of darkness forever

__________
molly

molly/bc/sami+molly/

hook: caught up in the crazy mad, shot up by the crazy sad, rolling like boulders, falling like soldiers.

show #2 concept #4

insanity is a figment of the mind
don't be unkind - don't let a soul get left behind

death is an inevitability / life is fragility /
walk these roads with trepidation and dignity

Quite good, youre kinda focused on the camera though. I'm not feeling a deep passion for the song, like youre repeating it but not singing it. Try closing your eyes and tapping your feet. Youre at a threshold as an artist where you have to abandon any kind of stage fright if you want to hit it big. Lose yourself, make funny faces while you sing if you have to, better a great song that makes your faced screwed up than a straight face and a flat song.

Pretty good tho. Nice shirt too.

Show #2 Concept #3

soemthing about toxic and abusive relationships [talking about mine with gf, father, mother, sister, best-friend's in the past, kids in elementry who'd name-call me but try to convince me they were my friends.]

people bother me still
doesnt matter how much skill ive accrued
i tried to be strong
but they tear me down again and again
i wanna be invincible
but im always so brittle
this is a war song
this is a battle call
this is a call to arms
this is my war song

walk into battle ready to fight
i walk into battle ready to die
the people in this room dont know who the fuck i am
im gonna continue to be me as much as i can

step off motherfucker
gimme some space i can't breath
back the fuck off motherfucker
you need to step off so i can breath

people are stupid sometimes
they love to play games
i try to be strong
but things are never the same
i try to be cool
i try to be fine
it doesnt always work
not every single time

i try to be great
i try to be cool
but they take shots at me
sometimes they make me a fool

step off motherfucker
gimme some room to breath
step off motherfucker
i need some fuckin room to breath
step off motherfucker
i need some room to breath
step off motherfucker
i need some room to breath

im tired of all the bullshit i face on a day to day basis
people always wanna remind me of my place in this state
i get tired of all the bullshit that i face day to day
i just wanna go outside and enjoy my fate

everyones gona die some day
everyones gona die some day
everyones gona die some day
everyones gonna die someday

im tired of all the bullshit in the world
doesnt even matter if youre a boy or a girl
tired of all the bullshit in the world

people try to mess with me all the time
people act like its not a fuckinc rime
im tired of all the bullshit
im tired of people throwin fits
its never cool for people to act like this
im just longing for some internal bliss
i wanna be free of all the bullshit
i wanna be way better than this

im a warrior
im superior
noones inferior

show #2 concept #2

do soemthing w/ the laptop, looping songs together + making a neat thing... sample perhaps? school myself on the use of the shit to make it work better... we'll see how it goes.

"We, to paraphrase DuBois, are the 21st century problem to be solved because, so says this literature, we dare to exist"
__________
racialicious book reccomendation:
"Barnes & Noble Booksellers
Polaris Fashion Center
614-854-0339 Address:
1560 Polaris Parkway
Columbus, OH 43240
View map (8.86 miles)
Store Hours:
Sun 10-9,
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Achilles Steel

betty's @ 7pm...

show #2 stuff

so currently we've got:
- either a 45 or 60 min set
- two confirmed guests [danny & molly]
- three weeks to get our shit together

Recap of show #1

so, the show went alright. i got the recordings off the pc that basiclaly the soundguy graciously did for us. they kinda sucked. lots of bc and sami, very little me. they came through strong, i didnt. so ivory's given us a second shot on lke... the 23rd of december. we can ami for that and do waht we can to make it work. loop pedals seemed to work alright but sami was askin for louder shit. keyboard was unnecessary, as was bass. guitar was the only thing i needed, so i could've had a clearer stage. bc had a spat about the song list, throwing it in my face. kinda stupid. i made it work, but there was drama afoot. the audience was also heckling a bit. kinda shit. sami was singing her song homeless. anita had alot of criticism. i felt great getting off stage. and everyone involved felt great participating. it'll take awhile to ignore any drama and see the real gems that were there. demotivational people can sometimes mire the good with the thick drip of dramatics. a good leader stears clear of the muck and stays true to the course and hits the mark. we'll see how we can improve next time over this performance.

show #2 concept #1

is there ever an exception to the rule?
just be you, be you, be you.
there's never an exception to the rule.
always be you, be you, be you.

stadium rock - the stage

Emaj/B#maj/F#min/Amaj/Emaj/B#maj/F#min
its so clear to me
that i am privaleged
stand upon the stage
see teh crow in front of me
its an amazing feeling
im still reeling

you catch the eyes of teh people
spreadoing teh message

the stag is a plce where a man can sing a song
teh stage is a place where everybody can get along
its your opperuntiyt ot spread your message to the crwod
its your chance to sing out loud

the stage is aplace where a man can say his peace
its a place where artists live
let the moment matter and the sound ring true
its a chance for you to sing to me
and for me to sing to you

this is our chance
to make a noise
its our oppertunity
to cause a change
revolution in a crowd
thought transmission done out loud
its your chance to change the world

stand upon the stage and make yourself clear
let them all hear, those far and near
it's your chance to make a mark
don't be afraid
let your instrument play
it's your oppertunity to be something cool

______________________________________________________
G#min/F#maj

don't be afraid to make a noise

G#min/B#maj

everyone wants to be a star
we're drawn to the light
it's not easy to make it big
but we wil lfight the good fight

everyone wants to be a star
we're drawn to the stage
we love how people listen to us
we're free from the cage

Emaj/G#min
its so cool

G#min/B#maj
everyone works so hard
for cryin out loud
playin their instruments hard
tryin to make a sound

"life is a long trip"

the trip - going out someplace...

think about all the things that ive seen
its a real mean scene that we dwell in
there's alot of things out there to be real
don't be naive and fall in

there's alot of people out there that seem to be fool

Emaj/F#min
its been a long long road that i've traveled
i've seen most of the world
people don't trust my mind
none of these boys and girls

i've been east and west
i've been through so much
i've seen things that could make you cry
i've got the gentlemen's touch

it;'s been a long wniding road
and i've been quite far from home
i've known so many people
and it's the road that i love to roam

i've got wanderlust
i'm a travelin man
i've got that itch in my feet
wanna travel as far as i can

Amaj/G#min/B#maj
and its so cool to me
that people, people all see
all through the things
the things that we all see.

four ideas

4 ideas:

the trip

went to england
took a plane
kinda fun
all in vain
had such a time
it was plain
things were never
the same again

saw the house
fallen apart
neighbor dead
speach an art
saw the kids
met from the start
things were shit
had to be smart

roamed around
saw the green
it was
a beautiful scene
things were
completely serene
sorted things out
mind was clean

out on streets
feeling the chill
knowledge of things
made me ill
sitting by
the window sill
rain fell down
time stood still

the stage

on the stage
see the people
everythings clear
all for real
never a chance
make it work
stand straight
dont be a jerk

people here
attentive waiting
watching you
demonstrating
patient and calm
open and kind
these are people
you left behind

dont be a fool
dont be a fucker
these arent idiots
they arent suckers
take their time
and value shit
dont take it
and throw a fit

bass knocker

in the city
shit was gritty
drove in the streets
shit wasnt pretty
movin along
oldsmobile
ethnic foods
shits for real

windy city
diversity aplenty
smoggy streets
cabs costs twenty
dont get lost
you'll be taken
don't be bad
you'll be forsaken

the matrix

think bout shit
let yourself go
stay with it
=fall out the flow
everythings connected
we're far apart
this thing we call life
is mostly art

walk around
trust your eyes
can you tell
between the lies
lines are read
books are placed
dont let yourself
lose your pace

things are weird
you are clear
somethin goin
down right here
got your head
underground
don't let yourself
be lost + found.

ideas:
"financials" - all about money
"england" - love of country, nature, style, trying to be a gentleman in a savage world.
"annoyance" - how much can a make take?

***"the stage is for everyone" - anyone can sing / tell jokes - its our duty to the audience to do something remarkable, statement to other performers too, privalige of being on a stage [appreciation, music is an exchange]

"jolly-rancher" w/ addiction tie-in. [valued thing.] - keep it dance.
"the power of the mind" - all invention comes from the mind - a statement about people's ability to create: hope for the hopeless.

***"an experience[trip overseas]" - flight/fire/station/ - story.

shit to do for success [bc's past shit]
- mixtapes. w/ dj talk/mc
- get in the zone

Cmin/chumbawumba-beat
nobody's seen the things that i seen
put your body through it
put your mind to it
put your body to it
and you get on throgh it

bc's ideas

BC's ideas
- the hate cycle***
- "fast thought"
- nothin personal - "just doin my job" - the lack of intimacy and directness in society. dehumanization.

nothing personal

nothing - there isnt any
personal - this isnt vindictive. you havent dont anything specific.

- BC's roots track. [the character: afro flow.] bass thumpin / scene jumpin. ***
a navajo named achilles track? - backstory... etc.

- "cover" - purple haze. [suggest: new music / application / rap-delivery? w/ adlibs]
- matrix track - suspense w/ room to kinda be cerebral. - tie in some of the big picture concepts that we're fuckin w / ***
- a person BEING a conglomerate of stuff not quite one channel, but many.
- "listening to the tune of the wild" - simplicity o nature / direct & concrete reality. [high hat concept]
- oh shit buildup. = the first track we do.

___________________________________________________________________________

- modern depression + occupy columbus + "foodstamp crew" + bus-stop blues. + kick people outta wallstreet... + china buying debt... european crisis. - global phenomenon. tables have turned. india/russia/china/brazil. - BrazilRussiaIndiaChina - cold-war flip-flop [flip-flopping.]
- columbus ohio "stunting" track.

1. bass knocker
2. matrix.
3. jolly rancher - maybe. [may not hold up.]
4. bus-stop blues - maybe. [negative]

band shit

ideas:

- jolly rancher idea w/ dance n shit [can ask the question, "jolly?"]

- the "wow" song - negativety + shit [chance to be as negative a spossible. ]
- zoomin song... [speed o thought speed o life.]
***- the concept of: [how somebody]guards against negativety [tie in w/ BC's flippin channels idea]
***- the concept of how: cycles o' hate [lead to more] hate [tie in w/ domino's]
- the concept of: [how people] create shit for needless reasons, vs need
***- the concept of: addiction to modern shit [vs cavemen livin off the land] - tech vs the wild [w/ bc's jungle "boogie" + high hats + simplicity]
- the concept of: terrorism: how we back people into corners n watch them turn into [terrorists]
- the concept of: how college is basically a waste o time
***- the concept of: how people act fake in situations sometimes [BC's "nothin personal" idea]
- the concept of: how people tend to try to fight w one another as a natural impulse
*** - poetry + music...

- the concept of: how "modern depression" is our current global financial situation, and how people r livin through it [encorporate into BC's "static" track - multitiered approach]

***- write somethin bout cbus [encorporate into BC's track bout "oh shit"]

- classic 80s hiphop track [bc's "bass-knocker" track]

- thamesbeat / britpop [punk / nate]
- triphop/celtic-punk/bhangra/trance/merengue
- the tragedy of childhood in adulthood, romance + crushing doubt/low self-esteem - people try to play up how awesome choldhood is, but theyre drawn into the weakness and succeptability of the child mind and they end up dying horrible deaths miserable and defeated because its an dadult world which takes an adult mind to comprehend and succeed in. [BC's matrix track]
- the concept of: the death o the video game industry [just how it sucks and used to be cool] [mario beat?]
- dramatic beginning / intro

Needa start slow-build
Dramatic beginning / intro
Afro flow / a navajo named achilles

good idea.

possible direction for setlist:
Start with drum + bass (easy to get into, hip-hop is foundation of our style)
Do straight up rap-anthem
After that, speed it up a bit w the electronic drums + jungle/breakbeat/ragga/grime stylings
Then after that, slow it down, something aery, trip-hop style
After that, do some rock style stuff, maybe semi country/bluegrass/bluesy mixed with straight rock n roll
After that, do something ***classical, chill + whatnot in a way people can identify with.
After that, do an acoustic folk thing, perhaps with harmonium [w/ bhangra?] involvement.

some more stuff:

12 ideas:
1 club song
2 the concept of: getn pumped to go outside to maybe a club or somethin excitin
3 track dedicated to england
4 track dedicated the college experience
***5 death
***6 war

***7 the potency of the mind - how all ideas stem from the human mind, every object in our life is created by a mind that was once around. and how we tread on the peak of scientific knowledge that was accrued by hundreds of scientific minds. we're the culmination of this ice age's human continuum. [bc's "matrix" idea]

***8 love [many people dont believe it exists, and those who do, even they may doubt where they find it, and ist few people who know the science of love, and even fewer who can applyit successfully.] - [bc's "rnb/soul"] [my-"u2/dreamy"]
***9 childhood - [while we're in it, we don't understand, as adults we long for it, but then we treat children like pets, or slaves, and arrtists are said to be children, but in reality theyre very adult studied and scientific, so basically the romanticising of childhood, and inevitably ignorace]
***10 the afterlife - [all the different major reliogns that i could think of like, heaven, or valhalla, or the cycle of death and rebirth in the buddhist tradition. combining all thse together, musing on death and rebirth and... the idea that we're born in the heart of stars... and eventually we'll be star-food for a dying star... ]
***11 space -
***12 science - what is science, questioning, is it an art...
1Spirituality - the concept of... how people need it for solance in life, the concept of overcoming death... giving strength to a person.
2Perception - the concept of how we see what we seee
3alcohol - legal drug, social lubricant... carcinogen.
4business - the art of making money, the science of the economy. - the role of the buyer, the role the seller, the entrepreneur, the guy who just got laid off from the car company, the asian dude whose gettin racism. -

more shit:

The american game of black white
Baby cock
Suhleepy
Too much golf cart
The Food stamp crew - low economy shit / modern day depression.

"u wanna jolly?" - " do the jolly rancher" jolly rancher track -
- oh shit - try some kindof a song w/ a swagger to it? - oh shit swagger.
[oh shit + jolly + swagger + 808s.] - potential intro .

setlist:

5nathan - "
10trumpet guy [jake] w/ sami
15sami - "wandering star- portishead cover"
20gatsby
25comedy guy
30
35
40
45

""Do not follow where the path may lead. Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail" – Ralph Waldo Emerson "
the idea is each featured artist gets a chance to blast out their part during their bit... should be cool.

setlist

1. england**
2. japan
3. war**
4. death**
5. space
6. future**
7. past**
8. science
9. religion**
10. clubbing
11. gettin amped up
12. nature.**

options

woodlands open mike

firstly, we've got a band page: http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Heroes-of-Music/281943285172765

secondly, we've got a soundcloud: http://soundcloud.com/heroes-of-music

thirdly, i've got a soundcloud: http://soundcloud.com/sandeep-s

with that said, we're planning on doing woodlands tonight.

a little recap, monday we did scarlet n grey's open mike, @ the 1045pm slot. not bad + all that. worked with a guest trumpeter, and he invited us back for his set. was fun.

anyhow, tonight i'm not sure exactly what i want to do. little recap on last week's woodlands, we more or less freestyled the whole thing, with me on keyboards, pedals etc, and mike/effects. i came up with beats, then keys on top + all that. tonight i think we're more gonna do the whole pre-prep setup. maybe we'll improv at least one on stage. i wouldn't mind that.

as far as what i want to bring, i have quite a few options. acoustic/electric guitar, bass, keyboard, mike, pedals. on the pedal board, there's the loops to mess with. also there's the chance i could burn a cd of hammerhead beats to play along to. BC's against that but to give you another recap, a few weeks ago i went on with Nick and his friend Chris with Hammerhead beats + the pedals with the bass. it was pretty cool.

working on my setup

so i've got a current situation where imw orking with hammerhead for the beats, ive got the pedal bag through which tonight i ran a bass. also did vox, where i'd swap the cord back n forth btwn the two. i want to figure out how to sync beats w/ the [BPM] boss RX20 and the hammerhead software on the pc/cd/etc. we'll have to see what's what with that.

so performance wise [tonight] i ran the bass through the rx20, the reverb, delay and pitch shift, and into the mixer, additionally having the CD of hammerhead loops, and two mics through which guests interspersed themselves.

guestwise i had nick, and his bandmate chris. i sang through temike borrowed from BC, through which i ran into the pedals and out into the mixer [so i swapped between the bass and mike]. if i had a mini mixer or a splitter or something it might've been a good idea?

problems i ran into: bass cord came out a few times [wireless cord a solution?], i ran out of things to play [felt like i was playing the same thing over and over]

good things i noticed: they really love the beats["bobbleheads" anita called it, people in the crowd nodding], i noticed a dude in the crowd dancing [heard of a girl in the back doing the same], and i had a body-buzz of excitement getting off the stage, plus bass was fun as fuck to play, and nick was able to do alot of deft lyrics on the mic. it was awesome. plus i did a vibratto through the pitch-shift [vocally] and it sounded rediculous [something i picked up from some work i did on the mike a few nights ago alone while i was working on loops.]

i felt good about the whole thing because a) i'd gotten the chance to play a beat [made in hammerhead] for the first time [at the scarlet n grey] and i got a chance to try that new vibratto through the delay and pitch shift [another first] at the same spot. plus i got to try bass w/ the hammerhead stuff [again another first.] it was pretty awesome.

5 - fight til i die
4 - 1995
3 - untitled trippy awesomeness.
2 - untitled jpop
1 - untitled chilled out

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2/3/11 open.

brainstorming

there's alot wrong with HOM right now. One of our members is fucking awol which never helps and another guy is sortof lfoating. im a dedidcated dude and i really dont think ill just let shit fall apart. if i invest myself into something it grows and becomes better than what it initially was and id ont want to sit back and just let things fall apart at the seams just because certain people are just missing the point of this shit. at the end of the day if i dont do whats necessary for this group, its basically just one of those things that ultimately will consume us. and if we dont get consumed completely then it'll just be one of those thigns that ultiately takes its toll on the rest of us. we need to sit down and make sure we're not wasting our time banging our heads against something thats not going to lead us anywhere. and if we do make sure that what we're doing is a great thing then we can put our best foot forward and not worry about the nonsense that is in fact out there. otherwise if we just sit back and do the nonsense we have been doing we'll only stand to waste time and make little to no money, and probaby lose some in the process.

so to me thats all just a weird fucking setup. we as band mates need to sit down and really just rectify the wrongs of the past and present. we have to arrange ourselves in a way that completely makes sense with what we'er trying to doa nd if we cant do that the ultimately we're just wasting time. we have to be smart in how we handle ourselves and if we can't do that then we're just not playing smart period. and honestly i think that if we just sit back and let time take its toll then thats basically how this shit tends to go. so ultimately yeah, there's alot of nonsense going down and i feel like if we dont go and do the things that we need to it will ultimately just be a big waste. there's got to be a happy medium here, there needs to be some semblance of whats worthy and what isnt and if there isnt then we're ultimately wasting precious time and energy. and there's nothing good about that. thats my own impetus here. we're creative people with finite lives and all that. we need to agree that in life there isnt much time to do things so there needs to be a set structure to the way that we do things and if we manage to make it work the way we want to then we can capitalize on the gains of structure and all that it brings.

we can't just expect to be able to push through scenarios without any foundation to stand upon. this is why we DO in fact need heirarchies. i feel like i could come up with a method to make shit work, and kindof like, get things sorted in the way thats ultimately possible. if we dont do that, we're just wasting shitloads of our time. and thats what i think is a mjor problem in the music scene today. people are just literally walking around mindless and not having any clue as to whats what and ultimately they really dont know shit about whats there. its just the sortof thing that makes me wonder like... how the hell do we actually make some use of this shit. otherwise if we dont then whts to say we've even really done anything good with our time. we have to make sure that we're really doing something that matters otherwise if we dont then we're just sitting back and throwing ourselvs into something that has no use whatsoever. if we do something thast a waste of time we're taking what precious time we have on this planet and squandering it, not on mistakes but on knowingly wasting time. there can be no bigger sin on this planet than do lay idle. but some people seem intent on doing just that, while others want to make something of themselves.

now here's the thing, people sit back and complain about shit but unless they sit and actually try to do something about what it is theyre facing then i think theyre just ultimately time wasting. you cant just complain without any input. thats just bad business. if you want your shit to lead to good things then you have to put your thoughts into action and make sure that youre really working your ass off to lead things to where they need to go. otherwise youre just shorthanding yourself in life really. let every situation teach you something new. dont ever let yourself repeat the same patterns. evolve your life and make sure youre always enjoying the pursuit of knowldege and happiness. to try to strive for the stars isnt a fools game, just a difficult one. and you may just be the best if you try to be. i think the key thing is when you set your sights high then you reach pretty high.

talkin bout shit

list of changes we need to make w/ bc + nick
- their messiness
- the fact that they never clean up the music equipment
- the kitchen
- i'd say the fact that they're here for way too long
- no facebook
- i'd say they need to stop making all this noise when im trying to do really difficult guitar parts
- noise / arguing
- they need to stop insulting my lyrics when im trying to write them.

well, what do you think about how they keep saying im arguing.

i dont know

do you think i am?

i dont know. you all argue.

nick just started yelling at me and then said i was arguing at him. and then bc got his back and said i started it. and then bc started asking some stupid shit and i answered. and then nicks like, "youre being rude." and he went on a ten minute rant about how i was being rude. and when i tried to get them to figure out which songs we were going to do for the list, they basically refused to respond. and they basically ignored me when i was trying to make the loop. basically they were asses the whole time. here's what i think

who i feels being a bit invasive

so you think he's being invasive?

well why do you think i always hide off when theyre in here. you know? every time theyre here is tay away from this room. i come to the kitchen when imhungry and i cook. but i clean up after myself. nick left the pan on teh stove with the burner on. he wasnt cooking anything just burning leftovers.

basically, theyre trashing our place. and theyre basically like, making you feel uncomfortable. and theyre basically like not in harmony with our home. if theyre gonna be here they have to treat our place with respect

yeah there's always beer cans all over the place when they leave. i just, i dont know, why didnt nick take his equipment with him. we're not a storage spot. you take your shit.

yeah i mean like, see this is why i needed to cancel all the other shit. cause there's so much wrong with this band right now that it takes all mya ttention. i can only really commit to one new thing at a time, school is old, but this band is new. our relationship is old but the bands new, you know what im saying. and like... so there's so much wrong right now. they're calling me an ass but if you look how they acted they were the ass today. do you think i was an ass yeserday?

not really. i mean maybe a little bit when you got pissed off. but they made you pissed off, and you calmed youself down, and you made them feel the way you feel. i dont consider that being an ass, i consider that helping them understand. helping them grow as human beings. cause apparently they cant put themselves in other peoples shoes.

yeah its like, there's basic shit that they just don't get. bc was literally imitating me and denied it in the middle of the act.

yeah, that wsa fuckin rediculous.

and bc walked up to me and said good job on not arguing today

what?

exactly.

i would be like good job on being so lazy today, peace. like... oh my gosh.

exactly, and now you understand why this is stressful.

i already knew it was stressful, i shied away at first, and now im gettnig more involved. before then, all i really noticed was how messy theyd make the apartment.

see the thing is, those were the only problems at the time.

yeah, theyre adding up now. you never argued before. it was chill as fuck when it was just you and bc. you know? you guys would work.

thats the point, thats what iw as telling you, i knew when nick got involved it would get like this.

its complicated cause he's got talent, but put him and bc together and theyre completely children and youre the adult in the situation and im like, i feel like a fucking housewise.

see, thats, i wish you had the balls to say that to them.

im sending them a message saying all that shit to them right now. im sick of the bullshit man. like youre going to schoo,l he's got a job but thats not as stresful. all he has to do is flip burgers and push buttons.

i mean like, they just gang up on me.

yeah.

the band wasmy idea. it was my diea every time we get together. and i was the one who decided to give them more power. and they decided to use it to be asses. theyre like classless fuckfaces. nick goes back and forth from being understanding and being an ass. same with bc really. theyve come to think that its a really fun thing to fuck with me. they have it convinced that im the one doing something terrible to them. all im doing is treating them like adults. and they dont know how to handle it. theyre scared shitless of being adults. they dont know how to fucking act like men. like theyre given this great oppertunity. and all they can think of to do with this shit is to fuck with me. if it keeps going like this then im going to cut them off. ill just go back to the open mikes but this time i have a method to write songs. because basically im not gonna put up with this kinda crap. ive been very patient with them through the whole process. and theyve just picked me apart as if im an entertainment form to them. thats fine, im an immigrant, they dont udnerstand my point of view. but strangely i understand there's. what the truth is is theyre just too dumb to understand anything. theyre too ungentlemenly to hold their tongue in these situations. and they have no fucking way to deal with stress. they feel like the world revolves around them. and theyre pretty close to losing me as a bandmate.

i actually wonder if theyre the reason all the other people didnt wanna play with us. not even nathan really. malcolm was always a tool. see lilly was goodbut she's also a bit of a tool. and like... same with fuckin... tyler and kei kei. there was this guy called gatsby who was pretty good but he flaked out. ironically he was the most talented person in the group. maybe all the issues that imseeing now were directed to him at the time. and ultimately maybe nick and bc are chasing all the talent away. because look at this, im the onewho attracted those poeple in the first place. all those people liked me and i think nick and bc pushed them away. nick would always stand back and complain about shit. the first jam session he just stood back silent with a frown on his face. and then afterwards he said, "i thought you were an ass" to me. he's basically obsessed with being afraid of being bossed around. like he's kinda one of those people who has an inadaquacy issue. and bc is just an anger management case that needs to go to a couple more sessions. i think the shame is they dont realize how fuckin fucked up they are. they think i was fucked up but if i was fucked up i never wuolda been able to put together the jam session. and the first jam session we had was 10 people and 9 of them only nkew me. they came on good faith based on reccomendation from me. they all assumed that everyone was gonna be as cool as me. but as it turned out, most of the people werent. and so we lost basically everybody. and the only people we could keep are probably the ones that drove everybody away. like im a talented dude and they dont respect my talent. i try to write music and they interupt me. i try to talk about music and they insult me. i try to write lyrics and they insult them. like, every part of what i do gets insulted at this point. and if i say anything about what they do then they say that im the bad guy. which is really the sortof of thing youd expect from a childminded motherfucker. like, im getting zero respect right now, they want me to do things their way, and their way of convincing me is trying to insult me again and again. they have zero people skills. and they have no clue how to run a successful organization. and they have so many little mental insecurities and shit.

fuckin brats

ive got some foolish motherfuckers in my fuckin band. but yeah, thats how this shit goes. i mean like, fuckin hell. guys are actin all stupid n shit. and its like... dude, you needa fuckin figure ur shit out. youre fuckin retarded, and youre also fuckin holdin up progress. thats just how this shit goes. theyre actin like fools and fuckin around with shit. but like, at the end of the day, its just fuckin foolish. at the end of the day they act in weird ways and shit, and its just like... i dont know. i mean like... i fuckin put my ass on the line and they fuckin expect me to just humble myself like whatever. and its fuckin stupid. like... yeah.

bullshit

fuckin fools actin like idiots n shit. they walk around n talk their shit but at the core of it theyre just fuckin around. we're all tryn to make some music here n shit. and thats what its all about. if you can't make that shit happen, then its a fuckin waste. gotta capitalize on the shit that we've got. we know what we're good at, now we needa focus on what we suck at. there's alot of that shit too. ultimately thats just how this shit goes. you can't just fuckin hide from the weaknesses. do the weakest shit so that it gets sorted out. in order to move on in a useful manner we need to fuckin try to fuckin make our shit work. that's what it's about. at the end of the day this is hardcore shit and we're doing what we're doing to make this shit work. at the end of the day, its just one of those things. you've gotta work your ass off to make the most of what you've got and if you don't then you're just wasting what you've got which is a crying shame really. don't let yourself fall victim to that mentality. its fuckin stupid if you do. because thats just rediculous.

band stuff #2

something to think about: how do we sell tickets to a show beforehand? since we've got family + friends, we could sell the tickets, pocket the money, and they wouldn't necessarily have to show up to support us. maybe we split the ticket fees with the venue? maybe if we own the venue or know the owner / renter, we dont have to pay them? maybe this would be a better money-making setup than doing the typical "door-guy" setup and all that. ultimately if we can figure out decent setups with this shit, it might be a good idea. we'll see. the jam sessions turning into a thing with malcolm, the band things turning into a thing with nick and bc. maybe people are basically having their own levels of commitment and involvement. we can support malcolm's events, as well as nathans and all that. but i think we should consider the jam session your event. if malcolm takes that shit over, that'd be cool, his own event where he could run it how he liked n shit. and our shit'd be like... the band sesions. might be a better idea to make it malcolms. that way we can focus on being a band, and being a guest @ the jam session. "heroes of music" will be attending the jam session tonight. that sortof a thing.

band stuff

so im currently playing w 2 dudes in a group called heroes of music. its been gettn kinda crazy lately. basically these guys are comin at me sayin im too arguementative or whatever. but the bottom line is theyre fuckin insane. like... basically... im sittin there makin a loop and theyll interupt me. and they want me to get used to this. i feel like they need to respect my process, i have a way of making music and it works for me, if i change that process it may dilute the product. criticism after the fact is fine, but WHILE im making the loop? BC gets this, but tlks about how his flow gets interupted if I say anything. i get that, but he does the SAME shit to me, and even asks for permission to have free reign to do that shit. what really pissed me off is when he goes, "this isn't REAL music." i mean like, that's just fuckin nuts. you can't just fuckin talk about shit and say its not real music. don't give a shit if it's a) spoken word, or b) not lyrically up to your own standards. If i think its cool, thats an arbitrary thing which you have no say in. Now, if we vote for the band shit, then thats another thing altogether. these guys dont know shit about shit and its frusrtating to have to deal with them under these circumstances.

i mean like, i fi hit them with what ive got, then theyll buckle under the pressure. thats not a good thing, because i want them in fighting shape for the group. but if we destroy ourselves before we can make anything OF ourselves, then thats a waste of time. - but lets take a step back. this kid, BC, started fuckin like trying to psychologically evaluate me, tried to back me into a mental corner, and its like... fucking nuts. like, you can't fucking do that shit to anybody. don't fucking even try. he tries to say shit to try to "put you in your place" but what he doesnt realize is that I'm just using every instance he does as a chance to increase my resistance to his crap. I'm getting better over time, as I figure him out better. Ultimately, dude needs to shut the fuck up. tryin to say bullshit like the world is ruled by some psychological crap, thats fine and all, but you fuckin continue with that shit way too much. leave us the fuck alone and dont fuckin bury us in it. he says i personal attack him, he comes after me. talks about me, my emotions, everything. like... he thinks he can "observe" me, make comments, "criticisms" but then when you flip it, he can't handle it, and suddenly me making my own observations + criticisms is "over the line." can't handle what he dishes out.

ultimately its because what he's dishing out is unsustainable. in the sense that, yeah sure, he can spew crap like a volcano, but the guy recieving the shit is going to eventually get fed up with it. he's basically the kinda dude who sits there spewing shit nonstop. when he looks at you and goes, 'the reason why you do this shit is cause of fuckin arousal man.' its like, dude, stop bringing your fucking psychology shit into a fucking BAND. leave it the fuck alone, youre interupting my goddamn creative flow, and im getting pissed about it. Nick just asks way too many questions. just cause i own equipment doesnt mean im fucking here to teach you about it. do your own research. google it. use your own fucking head. they expect me to just lead them to whatever the fuck they want to be led to. im not gonna fucking play that role for them. they needa figure it out on their own. i had to, and its not hard to anymore. watch a fucking youtube on each of my pedals. put your own effort in. im not here to fucking TEACH you, im here to make MUSIC. but yeah, i mean these dudes, they're rappers. pretty good too. im a musician, and pretty good at that. and these guys, well, they come up and cause bullshit. like... nick's issue is every time BC starts fuckin w/ me, he starts talkin shit in terms of how i "deserved it."

lets be clear, there's no circumstance where fuckin with someone is cool. I saw completely through BC's shit, and the thing is, he got mad. first, he was imitating me, responding to every fucking thign i said, going, "why" this and "why" that. why do i need to explain myself to this fool? I am the way i am, and that simply is the case. who gives a shit why. why are you black? why am i brown? there are certain immutable facts about reality and you need to accept them as such. he thinks people are pliable, that basically they're there for him to mould. fuck that egotistical POV. he needs to accept people the way they are. he lacks a basic level of respect for anyone. but yeah i mean like... there's so much crap going on beneath the surface in these situations. nick's comin at this as if im the bad guy, but my only goal is to write music. and if bc's crap gets to a point of intolerability, then i will put my foot down. nicks against putting feet down, ever. which is why he ironically gets walked over. he cant even make apoint without making a disclaimer first. he can't say a goddamn thing without getting permission. and if he even has an insult to throw, he can't do it without apologizing first. dude needs to fuckin get his skill up to shit. if he can't, then we can't operate at peak capacity.

these guys just arent used to working at peak. like, to have a team, shit needs to be ironed out. there can't be any issues amongst the involved parties. ande veryone needs to be focused. you can't be focused if you're getting distracted. and in my case, disrespected. its a matter of principal. when nick + bc start ganging up, thats just sad to see. is that really fair to throw two voices at one man? not even a fair fight. they tell me I like fightnig, but they're the ones who start the shit. they think its ok to say insulting ass shit, and that anyone who takes offense to it is whack. if you say offensive ass shit, sometimes you might offend someone. its like... dude, wake the fuck up. - i know bc's situation is influenced by his past, what with the deaths n shit, and his current roommate, the fuckin jail dude. bc's completely afraid of getting discovered as a softy, so he does whatever he can to appear cool. to me, thats a waste of time. me, my goal is to make music that i enjoy, with a team of people that work together efficiently. people may not like how i do what i do, but theyre small minded fools who are pansies and pussies and dont have the balls to be ambitious and successful in life and'd rather play pattycake with the girls. fuck their smallmindedness.

but again, im starting at the bottom. i dont have a crack team, but a whack team. the people i have are the worst of the worst, but ill make a team out of them anyway. these are talented people, they have the skills i need for my group, but theyve also got a handfull of insane tactics and techniques. when you find people in these situations, its those positions that are fucking insane. people think that theyre at the top of their game, what with nick and his "connect", bc and his... all this shit. bottom line is the dude needs to just fucking let go of whatever issues he's got and just become the person he knows he is. otherwise he's just wasting his time. and thats a shame because if he wastes his fuckin time he's wastin my time too. we should be able to get together function as a team and produce music in a systematic way. we can write songs clearly thats teh core of what we do. but we need to automate our process of sticking songs into some sort of a vat whereupon we can take these songs and perform them or cd them. we need a system of shit to kinda make shit work the way we need it to. and the thing is, its hard to do that with all the distractions. we've got a song-writing team. we've got this jam, but im washing my hands of it. malcolm can run it if he wants, but im done with that shit.

ultimately, i spent a few months finding musicians. now that ive found them, im working towards a new goal. mission accomplished: get a band. now that ive got one, i want to take that group and make it work. the thing is, thats a new undertaking, and before i can do that, i have to wash my hands of the old shit. and part of that is addessing the numerous problems i saw in phase 1. firstly, nick is a fucking wallflower, but he knows he is, and he does it on purpose. he knows how to get involved, he just purposely standsback while shit goes down. thats gotta be one of the most frustrating things on the planet. the only time he uses his intellect is to snipe other people. yet if i do it, "oh man, thats bad, you just sniped." nick does it all the time, so does bc, but i think they expect me to be "higher quality" than they. if they want it out of me, i want to see it out of them as well. otherwise, until that point, they need to just shut the fuck up and go the fuck home. they dont know shit about shit which is funny because theyve been in this business for years. this is my first fucking band that matters, and ive got it ALL figured out. they need to recognize that, understand ive got something remarkable in my head, and they need to just let me loose rather than getting in my way.

and this is how i feel this shit has gone. theyve started to get in my way, while im making loops, and now while im fucking talking. i mean like, if i cant even talk, then there's a major issue. if i can't even make a statement ebcause they're picking it apart, rediculing every aspect of myself, from the use of my words, to the fact that im even talking about this. they question everything about me, why-this, why-that. i mean like, seriously dude, you ask TOO MANY why's. some questions don't have good answers. some topics need not be discussed. what does my POV have to do with making fucking MUSIC. i dont have to fucking answer your questions on random topics just because we're sittin around a room with a fucking BAND setup. now, if you interupt the flow, if you sit there and do some crazy shit, then yes, ill say some shit. and thats when they blow up, cause they cant handle it. theyre afraid of being called out when they make a mistake. they think, "oh sandeep, youre callin me out." fuckin nuts. at the end of the day, im not going to fail and there's nothing they can do to stop me. its a shame that these guys right now are actin like roadblocks but that happens sometimes. theyre not sure of my vision. theyre not sure that what im thinking is the right shit, thats fine.

ive got a good sense of things and they need to recognize that. they could have cash in pocket, but theyre actin like fools. being paid for music that a) we had autonomy over the parts and b) ... lets sidetrack. what badn lets the one member write the parts of teh other memebrs. bands whom i dont respect. bands of equals, where each person writes their own shit, thats good shit. nick thinks a band of equals is everyone equally criticizing the shit thats out there. i mean like, yeah, now is a good time to be critical of what we've got, but the reason why is because at the end of the day, there's alot that needs to be evaluated. we just got out of this fucking setup with these people and like... yeah i mean like... and the fucking insults. "you think you're deep, but you'rer eally just stupid." thats insulting but im not letting that shit stop me. they think that i should just "get shut down." its testing the waters in the most extreme way possible. but this is the thing, they sense murkiness, and people do that, they bring it up to you in the most unflattering way possible. its not that youre wrong, its that youre unclear, and without clarity chaos ensues. they feel like its all because "im loosing my temper" or some shit but its way more than that.

im transitioning from being involved with a jam, and a network of musicians, to closing that network and focusing on the three that are in front of me. these guys matter, the rest dont. so the focus is shifted. thats how i look at it. and with that being the case ultimately its one of those things. while bc thiks he wants me to work more towards the group, which i want to do too, he needs to realize that you cant just FORCE it. youve got to have coherence, otherwise its just a mess. and he wants to just force it, which's weird. you have to finesse it, don't just blunt-force-trauma it up. thats some stupid ass shit to take something as fragile as a band and to expect people to fucking go through that and all that. the band we've got is something we need to respect and ultimately if we dont have that we dont have anything. but yeah, there are real issues with the group and they need to be discussed. nicks fuckin attitude is a pain in the ass; when there's problems, they need to be solved. dont be fucking afraid of trying. thats a pussy ass way to look at shit. and for a guy whose obsessed with machoism, that should mean everything. fucking foolish. and bc buys into it. which is fucking stupid. i guess the thing is, bc's willing to see reason, as is nick. they just want me to give it to them.

and thats the thing, theyre lazy as fuck. they cant figure it out for themselves? they NEED to be figuring it out for themselves. i cant be the one to figure it out for all of us every time. i figure it out for ME. they need to take care of their own asses. ill figure this out, but only if they put equal investment in. nick fucking stands back and bitches, bc just starts mocking and imitating in perhaps some of the absolutely insultingest fits of speach ive ever encountered, but neither seems willing to put their minds towards the problem to try to solve it. thats the thing, they dont believe in their own abilities and so they feel like they need structure to make up for their own inadaquacy. thats fucked up. they need to fucking get their shit together and recognize that its not hard for them to get their shit in order and to become fucking men. right now theyre like... shambles of individuals. im trying to get them to that peak level where we are all badasses, individually and as a group. without that shit, we're nothing. they sometimes toe the pool but they rarely jump in. and thats a problem. but we'll see what we can do, and if we can make it work. otherwise, yeah. thats how this shit goes down. crazy stuff.

my top 100

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1
Sigur Rós
4,936
2
The Beatles
957
3
Paul McCartney
724 4
Sandeep Sehbi
589
5
New Young Pony Club
398
6
Babyshambles
392
7
Jónsi & Alex
385
8
The Joy Formidable
381
9
Jarvis Cocker
334
10
Lykke Li
317 11
Glasvegas
285 12
blink-182
270 13
Radiohead
265 14
Kasabian
261 15
Sting
256 16
Friendly Fires
218 17
Muse
204 18
Pulp
192 19
Imogen Heap
187 20
The Darkness
180 21
Massive Attack
160 22
The Welsh Assembly
157 23
Kings of Leon
145 24
Coldplay
144 24
Spacehog
144 26
The Wurzels
141 27
Art Brut
137 28
Semisonic
136 29
Elvis Presley
128 29
T. Rex
128 31
Dido
125 32
Interpol
113 33
The Cribs
111 34
Broken Social Scene
109 35
Cansei de Ser Sexy
101 36
The Bees
100 36
New Buffalo
100 38
Foo Fighters
96 39
The Kooks
92 40
M.I.A.
85 41
Hot Leg
83 42
Miss Li
82 43
Dizzee Rascal
81 44
James
79 45
Red Hot Chili Peppers
78 45
Paul McCartney & Wings
78 47
The Jackson 5
76 48
Oasis
74 49
The Wombats
73 49
The xx
73 51
Karen O and the Kids
71 52
Metric
69 53
The Blackburn Collective
68 54
The Courteeners
67 55
Collective Soul
65 56
Rolf Harris
64 56
KT Tunstall
64 58
Erykah Badu
63 59
The Jam
62 59
Brian Wilson
62 61
The Pogues
61 61
White Lies
61 61
Matt & Kim
61 64
The Holloways
59 64
Dirty Pretty Things
59 66
Jurassic 5
58 67
Snowden's Silent Canvas
57 68
Shy Child
56 69
Weezer
54 69
Rebellion
54 71
The Walkmen
53 71
Tony Bennett
53 73
John Lennon
52 74
Creed
51 74
Ringo Starr
51 76
The Dandy Warhols
49 76
Syd Barrett
49 76
Starsailor
49 76
Arcade Fire
49 80
The Fireman
48 81
The Streets
47 81
Keane
47 81
Lightspeed Champion
47 84
Led Zeppelin
46 84
The Dears
46 84
The Unicorns
46 87
Frank Sinatra
45 88
Talvin Singh
44 88
Little Man Tate
44 90
The Strokes
43 90
The Charlatans
43 90
The Maccabees
43 93
Vivek Mahajan
42 94
The Fall
41 94
The Libertines
41 94
French Kicks
41 97
Mellowdrone
40 97
Glenn Yarbrough
40 97
The Paddingtons
40 97
Shawn Lee's Ping Pong Orchestra
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muse

so i've essentially in this post-breakup haze decided to pull out alot of albums i'd hidden away in order to try and be more focused on what i was trying to accomplish in terms of school and stuff. of course now that we're split im sortof moving through this hedonistic phase with lots of booze hookahs and now music. performing my music on stages, and getting on stages for the comedy. comedy is definately a higher form of art than music. but music is more primal and definately just plain sexier. its pretty awesome. none the less yeah its a crazy fuckin setup. but yeah back to the music. i've got the newest Muse album playing and i read through their lastfm page.their most popular songs right now are from their newest album. i feel like thats a good sign that the band is literally besting themselves every time they make something. muse is on the way up and its a dizzying ride for sure. theyve gotten so much better than their early days with Origin of Symmetry and others of that era. It's actually nice to see. Glad they've managed to put it all together in the right way. They've also been winning "best performer" nods in Europe and stuff. All very neat.

I've also pulled out some other stuff. I grabbed a copy of Rum Sodomy and the Lash but it's "remastered" according to the label and it sounds NOTHING like the original. I was shocked and disappointed. But that's how it goes sometimes. None the less, after not getting what I thought I was, I remained faithfully to listen through and found quite a few songs that were pretty good. It's got the same heart to it which is nice. There's soul to the Pogues that is very unique and satisfying. You don't find it anywhere else really. it's uniquely Pogues. And perhaps that's what I look for in bands, uniquely good and great things. If that level of good is everywhere then it isn't really worth listening to ALOT.

labor

lately ive been interested in this idea of music that represents labor. the idea comes from billy connolly who in his tour of australia and other places as well, brought up how he had an appreciation for works that had been built of steel and rivets and the like. he was a welder as a young guy. and he had that appreciation for that ability to build things on grand scales but made by the sweat of many good men. to me there's something to that, the old fashioned good natured laborer. those who do an honest days work. and i like to sortof harness that energy and vibe when i play. you might think i dont have legitimate access to that as many people tend to typically feel you have to be born into it, but i qualify in a number of ways. i was an immigrant myself as were my parents, and while they were doctors they come from laborers. my father was the son of a farmer, and my mother was the daughter of a man who started at the bottom of a company and worked his way up from childhood into old age to become one of their chief engineers. he was never schooled but he was in steelworks. and cousins of mine do that sort of work to this day. billy though was the first to make me aware of the romance surrounding the pursuit.

i have admittedly always had a bit of an interest in farming and rural life. i do love for instance traditions and localities. small towns with character. and regions with culture unique to the area. these are all things ive grown to appreciate. and that is sortof the essence of my current creative drive and wave with regards to music. i have access only to a mandolin.