brainstorming

there's alot wrong with HOM right now. One of our members is fucking awol which never helps and another guy is sortof lfoating. im a dedidcated dude and i really dont think ill just let shit fall apart. if i invest myself into something it grows and becomes better than what it initially was and id ont want to sit back and just let things fall apart at the seams just because certain people are just missing the point of this shit. at the end of the day if i dont do whats necessary for this group, its basically just one of those things that ultimately will consume us. and if we dont get consumed completely then it'll just be one of those thigns that ultiately takes its toll on the rest of us. we need to sit down and make sure we're not wasting our time banging our heads against something thats not going to lead us anywhere. and if we do make sure that what we're doing is a great thing then we can put our best foot forward and not worry about the nonsense that is in fact out there. otherwise if we just sit back and do the nonsense we have been doing we'll only stand to waste time and make little to no money, and probaby lose some in the process.

so to me thats all just a weird fucking setup. we as band mates need to sit down and really just rectify the wrongs of the past and present. we have to arrange ourselves in a way that completely makes sense with what we'er trying to doa nd if we cant do that the ultimately we're just wasting time. we have to be smart in how we handle ourselves and if we can't do that then we're just not playing smart period. and honestly i think that if we just sit back and let time take its toll then thats basically how this shit tends to go. so ultimately yeah, there's alot of nonsense going down and i feel like if we dont go and do the things that we need to it will ultimately just be a big waste. there's got to be a happy medium here, there needs to be some semblance of whats worthy and what isnt and if there isnt then we're ultimately wasting precious time and energy. and there's nothing good about that. thats my own impetus here. we're creative people with finite lives and all that. we need to agree that in life there isnt much time to do things so there needs to be a set structure to the way that we do things and if we manage to make it work the way we want to then we can capitalize on the gains of structure and all that it brings.

we can't just expect to be able to push through scenarios without any foundation to stand upon. this is why we DO in fact need heirarchies. i feel like i could come up with a method to make shit work, and kindof like, get things sorted in the way thats ultimately possible. if we dont do that, we're just wasting shitloads of our time. and thats what i think is a mjor problem in the music scene today. people are just literally walking around mindless and not having any clue as to whats what and ultimately they really dont know shit about whats there. its just the sortof thing that makes me wonder like... how the hell do we actually make some use of this shit. otherwise if we dont then whts to say we've even really done anything good with our time. we have to make sure that we're really doing something that matters otherwise if we dont then we're just sitting back and throwing ourselvs into something that has no use whatsoever. if we do something thast a waste of time we're taking what precious time we have on this planet and squandering it, not on mistakes but on knowingly wasting time. there can be no bigger sin on this planet than do lay idle. but some people seem intent on doing just that, while others want to make something of themselves.

now here's the thing, people sit back and complain about shit but unless they sit and actually try to do something about what it is theyre facing then i think theyre just ultimately time wasting. you cant just complain without any input. thats just bad business. if you want your shit to lead to good things then you have to put your thoughts into action and make sure that youre really working your ass off to lead things to where they need to go. otherwise youre just shorthanding yourself in life really. let every situation teach you something new. dont ever let yourself repeat the same patterns. evolve your life and make sure youre always enjoying the pursuit of knowldege and happiness. to try to strive for the stars isnt a fools game, just a difficult one. and you may just be the best if you try to be. i think the key thing is when you set your sights high then you reach pretty high.