these fuckin kids are just runnin around, tryin to fuckin do nonsense, no fuckin drive no fuckin determination, just scared shitless, and thats all that fuckin comes through the music. what fuckin toxic ass shit. thats some horrible ass fuckin shit. fucking headache inducing and sleep inducing at the same fuckin time. what a fuckin rediculous ass fuckin group of people. i cant fuckin believe i actually played music with em. shoulda just fuckin walked off stage. it was fuckin no good. ive never aything that bad since grade school. what fuckin borin ass shit. and htose kids fuckin relyin on everyone around em it was rediculous. neither of em have fuckin cars. what fuckin slackers man. you got equipment? fuckin get a car. there's only a few fuckin people im willing to do fuckin favors. these guys would fuckin play my shit. it was fuckin rediculous man. dont fuckin play my guitars. dont fuckin tuoch my shit. these kids are fuckin all over my shit its fuckin rediculous. its fuckin nonsense is what all this shit is. no sense of fuckin possession. thats my shit dont touch it. and dont fuckin turn your shit out loud, its fuckin rediculous. dont needa fuckin deafen us when your fuckin playin.

the sadness of lennon kinda gets to me in a bad way

so i have the beatles discog playing. played a shit show with kids last night. spent way too many hours with those guys. went there at 8? came home at nearly 3am. 7 hours of shit. god how shitty that was that one dude was screamin his ass off and the other was fuckin playin a million fuckin miles a minute. it was no fuckin good. and every tmie id try to play somethin this kid'd try'n tell me what to fuckin do hah what fuckin bullshit dude. just step the fuck off i'll control what comes out of my instrument thanks heh. just fuck off kindly heh. so yeah i left there not to happy heh. im not gonna have someone tell me what to play n shit. n the dude was too fucking desperate. and he's doin drugs while fuckin havin probs to begin with. n the other dude was a fucking jerk hah singing his ass off "loud" just cause we were in a "punk" club, what a fucking mess man. im sorry i got involved with those fucking idiots man. what fucking dweebs. and it was utter shit. what a fucking shitty performance. it'll suck if i ever go back there cause it'll be with that shit in memory. what a fucking shitty performance. man ive never had a performance so shitty in all my time in fucking columbus. what a fucking rediculous ass show. absolutely fuckin rediculous. these kids are fuckin rediculous. the music is fuckin rediculous. that guys singin is fuckin rediculous. whole fuckin thing is rediculous. what a shitty ass fuckin show. ive never had such a shitty show in my entire life. reminds me of all the shit back in the day. i guess these're the kinda guys that needa practice. my shit comes natural man. i dont needa fuckin practice all day. they do some rediculous ass shit. one dude was tryin to play as fast as he fuckin could. whats the fuckin fun in that man. do you always have to play fuckinm fast? and the other fuckin dude was just screamin his fuckin ass off. what a fuckin rediculous pair of fuckers. and i fuckin wasted 7 hours. thats the fuckin end of that shit. never fuckin again. what a fuckin joke. what a fuckin rediculous pair of people. what a fucking rediculous ass situation.

hah i feel like my life is empty without sigur ros ;p thats what you call true fan ;p i love these guys alot. i have to listen to them or else i just get bored with life. sigur ros is my path in life. if that makes sense. its really poigniant how these guys have done what they've managed to do. its heavy and deep in a way that just shatters me completely, which is exactly what i guess im looking for in muisc, stuff that just rips me apart but also takes me to an amazing place.

so i went out to the kids place that was bipolar who hosted teh jam on monday, the pedal i think is at his palce and he lives ner charlies old place, thats how i found my way back, but he was out, so im gonna needa return. there'll be an open mic sunday that'll be the next one in town, means there'll be friday and saturday with no music stuff goin on. and yeah, been playin with anita, two nights ago @ my place after the bad andymans performance and one night ago ( aka today ) @ ... james piano's. two nights ago also went out and filmed lots of footage to make videos with got some good material.

terrific open mic @ james piano bar

yeah, so they had some people doing some rnb stuff a singer n drummer singer on piano, and yeah, was cool, they had some freestyle rappers hop up n play around, and yeah was cool. then i got on when they got off, got the drummer to jam with us, he jammed, while i was on piano just playin around, and yeah, so i had some lyrics, put some stuff together, and tried what i could, sang the song i had, then swapped onto the drums, and a frestyle rapper came on and did some stuff. then i got off and the other drummer got on, while james and his spotlighted singer sand some jazz tunes. the drummer and i started trading off each song we did, and so i got a chance to do some jazzy songs with the jazz songstress which was cool. tey finsihed, and kendell and his new replacement for anita got on. i drummed with him for one, then the other drummer did, then i did it again, then kendell decided he didnt want drums heh. so he finished his set and then the first guy got on again and played out with a hip hop drummer, and himself, playing together, then when they got off the freestyle rapper got on and did some stuff, asked me on and anita plus the replacement she had w/ kendell, and we jammed, then after a couple songs i got onto vocals completely and asked the other drummer on. i switched to piano eventually and another freestyle guy came back up and jammed with us, and anita i got her playing the higher end of the piano. after a fun song, we all wrapped up and got off the stage. good times for all.

played teh worst show ive ever played in columbus last night. went to pull out the loop pedal and it was missing, i believe its at the guys house whom i met a few days ago. i was angry, i played my keys, it didnt sound good. the keyboard situation was bad because i didnt have anything pre written, didnt know the tones before hand, and didnt know the beats beforehand, but i think i still got some positive feedback from people, which was cool, but i definately felt like i sucked hah. there was the jam bit in the beginning, then the indian song, then the final thing where i was making it up as i went along. but yeah its difficult to manage to do all of that for a hostile crowd. that was mys tory and im sticking with it ;p. anita was also there. she came over afterwards and we shot alot of footage. im going to put all of it together with music to make a video.

i think anita around may not have been the best idea seeing as how one of my goals is to get into her pants and im going to keep trying to do that with her around so i think its best if she doesnt come HERE but actually maybe meets up with me in more of a professional setting each time, like music at the open mics, shows, and the like. those sorts of things will lend to more of a healthy appreciation for and the like for anita. beyond that, right now its like how i felt when i was kinda awkward around folks in game. i think its better when you interact with them as professionals because then you can go much further with your craft with that person than if you make that decision cross that line and sexualize your working relationship which means everything will suffer in terms of quality and you will not get very far. so i think the anita thing needs to stop altogether.

another thing i decided was i need to better organize my music stuff. it may be time to set up the stand in the front room, so that i can see everything displayed before i go to the open mic. thats pretty important for me, the ability to just be able to glance around and tell everythings there. in this case id arrived without noticing my loop pedal wasnt there, so thats a lesson learned.

also, i wont be carting my setup to other peoples houses anymore, if they want to play with it, and if i do bring it someplace, it wont be something i mix and match, i will use my setup, and it will be mine, not for anyone elses uses, and the cords, guitars, everything, none of it is meant for other people. the guys were all too eager to play my guitar, but that was my setup and i didnt want anyone but myself playing that guitar. so yeah.

open mic tonight, may go.

this seems like it coulda rocked

this could be a possible song list for an album

tonight

wednesday, there's three open mics, andymans where they do the "disco party thing" after, and thirsty ear on third as well as Ledos on high. ledo's will suck to park at, thirsy ear may be a good first bet. but andymans is also good.

so the thing ate my post, met a bi polar kid living on social security thats sick at music, and a tennesse kid moved her recently just for music, all three of us are meant to form a band. ran into a crazy girl and a mean friend of hers who was disgusted by me asking if her friend was hippy heh, was strange but whatever, met the black dude from a week ago anita and i met, and was cool, spoke some, etc, got my pic taken for alive at andymans, and talked indian with the tender and patron for a little while, before then had a sip at the surly girl. got asked to take someone's picture ;p. took some decent street shots with the cam. and some footage of snowfal.

so bar of modern art. it was pretty good. looked like a castle. i went to an indian thing. and it was alright. lots of indian people basically. i guess i kidna realized i dont really feel that indian. yet. thats somethiing i wanna learn about and make a bigger part of my life. and i guess one way to do that is the fucking groups in campus. i dunno maybe i could be in ohio for all the other reasons. like fucking music and indian people. and just get a degree while im fucking wasting my time doing that shit. i wonder how long that kidsbeen doing that shit. he was at the fucking door man. but i mean he didnt even acknowledge me it was kinda shitty. i was certainly the least dressed person there. see id like to see an indian party at bar of modern art. its the best bar and something for me.

so here's what we've got goin on today

skully's free show @


cd release party @ cafe kerouac @



and hughs auditorium composer workshp @

free show eh?

this should be cool

band called our cat philip

this seems interestin

so yea. bands done. better that way i think.

but to the main reason why i posted. heh, the dude, well, heh... these guys are from ... colorado where a dude i game with is from, and they came all the way over here to play for us hah. craziness. well theyre really folk so meh, i guess for some reason people feel like folk is a big hit in these cities but i really hate it this is definately the wrong place for me to be hah.

but more to the point saturdays seem to be a big day for out of towners to come in. band after band are comin in from kentucky and other spots on tour and the venues are eating it all up hah. i guess what im looking for is that modern ohio sound the one that competes with the current indie sound nationwide.

lookin to jools holland for 2008

so this's a band called novice theory and here's the video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WeWngS3SZl0

not bad eh? i liked it. kindof a fight song.

then there's this group friendly fires.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B-vTYeArywk

i really like these guys. kinda like dance stuff. really liberating. i really like it. this's the sound of now. today. and i feel like if ic an do this sort of stuff i can be in it now.

so theyre supposed to be on around 10

bar of mod art sched this week

what my nightll look like

park street

thirsty ear

dicks den



these're the spots i wanna hit +
rumba.

plus maybe

bar of modern art

what's goin down tonight? read on...

so seems like there's a bunch of punk acts out at bernies tonight. these guys ( http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=1267397 ) and a few others, there's one i thought was pretty goo that got me pointed there in the first place, let me get the addy, http://www.myspace.com/chelseasmilerock . Chelsea Smile Rock. yeah its alright. kinda energetc. check out their influences



not bad hah.

some guy called chris logdons at another spot:
http://vids.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=10856845

check that vid on myspace.

a hip hop group ( http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=64314276 ) down at someplace. cafe bourbon?

this dudes playin dicks den. might go check that out hah, seems kinda decent. i guess he's related to the captains of industry that got on WOXY.com a couple months ago... neat.

fuck me the thing ate half my edit

Rumba Cafe - 268-1841
Fri 14: Bombay Phenotype 10pm

Park Street Tavern - 221-4099
Fri 14: Stretch Lefty

Dick's Den - 268-9573
Fri 14: Happy Chichester

three shows i wanna stop in on
plus maybe

Thirsty Ear Tavern - 299-4987
Fri 14: Miss Molly, Matt Munhall

well she called back and she thinks maybe the band wont work. she gets off at 1am. thats ina fucking long time. but its kidna bad news. ive gotta say that id think id be the one to say the band wont work. this to me reminds me of the situation that occured in guild awhile ago when daer tried to dissolve the guild. you dont want it to dissolve, you wanna be able to push through it. but we'll see. i guess we'll see if she can tolerate all of my ways~.

i left her a message saying we should meet like five days a week. because im like writing shit every day. and its really important for her to be there too. i left her another message as well, tellin her i was gonna go to the piano bar at midnight. i mean, what can i say. we'll see though. im just gonna keep doing my shit, and we'll see how everything goes between us. if she doesnt wanna come out thats her choice. but im gonna keep writing either way. like i was doing before. and eh, its her choice if she wants to get involved with it. so yeah. over time we figure out how things needa be. i know she's got the things she wants to do thats fine. but i wanna work hard and i wanna make some good stuff. and i can only do that with other people. and i wanna be able to work hard.

im not fuckin sure about this girl. i called her just now to tell her we were doin teh open mic and she didnt even pick up. i mean she might be at work. but ya never know. but i mean she didnt go yesterday or day before. she did go monday.

so i went and checked out jasons new stuff and its getting outa hand with how good its getting and in the meanwhile im hardly doing anything so i immediately recorded this after hearing his:

there's a few versions, first version is just half of the lyrics:




and there's this over version ( recorded it like 8 times mind you ) with lyrics in full, which in fact i think i'll take a second and see if there's anything better, i'll toss up what i've got in the meantime:




here's the last one i did, still not quite comfortable with the lyrics yet but its a bit better than the one before.

whats on tonight

local stuff

so my friend / foe jason matthews has been rocking out with new music from hisnew project the spruce campbells. its worth a mention, as its probably in my opinion the best stuff im hearing out of columbus ohio. its full of the sadness kinda from the vivek situation and yeah he kinda uses that to almost legitamize the music. he pulls from the dandys alot, and its pretty cool.


here's the addy http://www.myspace.com/thesprucecampbells

the way i kinda think of this is wound up kids tryin to write stuff thats chill


the results somethin very human.

here's a thought, its kinda like before you get all that energy outa you, if you were to encapsulate it in a song, then its kinda like, that what this is. like the way i feel ebfore i write for like... a fuckig day just to get everything out of me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Q-bnHNve_A

like plankton on a whale these audiences kinda cling to the every word of rod stewart in this performance of sailing i feel like his depth is so deep that alot of these people never get to that point and i think because of it yeah there's something there of poigniancy thats there.

some people say there's a soul some people have that lets them be like that

and yeah ive been there, but ive also been in the position of the audience where i was hanging on every word. but yeah, there's something to be said about either one. so yeah.

its hard. because sometimes youve got thoguhts in yoru head that need to be comitted to paper. and once theyre out you can think. but sometimes our minds get so clouded that its hard to outthink yourself from them. and so for me it becomes hard to do certain types of performances.

it took me a few times through to understand why the guitarist stopped but i guess its because the audience needed room to get back onto rod stewart. he let rod rebuild the song from his guitar part. which in a way let the audience come in and fill the gap. and i guess makes them feel apart of the performance maybe. i dunno.

but it always struck me as strage as why he stopped after that solo. and rod stewart also when he began to wane a bit and fall in amongst the other singers, but i guess in that sense they seem to be almost falling back and letting "god" take center stage as being the main focus as even rod stewart steps down and lets the music and scene become its own presence of statement.

its interesting. but this performance is definately one of my favorite ones.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JiRuNTh7Uzo

watch this:P

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you cna hear a bit o zep in this vid hah. sick. radiohead though really are one of the best bands of our time ive said that before and ill say it again they really are one of the tops and theyre in my mind comparable to zeppelin of the 70s in some ways because of how they kinda go off and do those moments of pure music and screams. its awesome.

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