deception

we were asked to a studio to support a friend and fellow artist, but ended up sitting idle for nearly six hours serving little more as a servant to fetch food and our singing lasted no more than five minutes. it wasa huge dissapointment and we'd expected a great deal more out of that situation. but given that, we still enojyed it partially. what really knocked me over was teh way they were basically salivating over anita. when she got into the booth i felt like they were both kinda salivating all over her. it was no good. so yeah. after that i just fucking didnt trust those guys any longer. giving them the right and respect that they hadn't earned and likely didn't deserve. that's the main thing. so im kinda breakign with the community in a particular way. numbers deleted. help no longer being asked for. we don't need help and we can do this ourselves. we're kindof being manipulaed. and here's a thing for you all to ponder. why do people fucking walk around asking other musicians to come to their shows. its like hey, dude, im broke. why the fuck would is spend five bucks on you when i can get the same shit for free in my own fucking living room. they're like youve gotta support the artists, yeah, fuck that, what fucking bullshit heh, i needa fucking myself is what i needa fuckin do, and not a damn thing else than that. perhaps if i become fucking rich ill pay other people shit, but thats it. its fucking amnesty man, its not a fucking requirement. and as friends i should be allowed to fucking listen without shelling out the dough. but nah, asking friends to pay to get into your shows is kidna fucking rediculous. anyhow thats how these kids fucking work and its fucking rediculous. im fucking tired of all the whieeling and dealing that seems to go on in the local scene where people try to hook up with each other and make things happen. its all fucking stupid and none should be fucking allowed. but it is, and it does seem to be the fucking norm, but its certainly not what we'd like to fuckin see. so yeah. im tired of these fuckers trying to fucking walk around and ask us to shell out dough for shit. im done paying for fucking peoples shows, and they can come see me if they like, but only because the music fucking brings em out, and not because we've wheeled and dealed them into fucking coming. fuck that shit, let the music do the work. let the people fucking make their own way into the deal. and if any dealing needs to be done, let it be done by a fucking manager and not by us hah. so thats that really. fucking nonsense from the tip to the very fucking bottom. people fucking acting like theyre owed money because theyre making noise thats hitting your ears. absolute bullshit, if its good noise then sure but if its shit if youd rather not be listening, then no fucking thanks you fucking thieving band of imbesiles. what a fucking waste of time to fucking speak with these people. im fuckign tired of this shit.